family December 17, 2017
Please pray that my family will stop thinking certain tasks are womens tasks and other tasks are mens tasks. It is extreme so much so that I cannot have a career. I have no defense against them. I have no money at all. I have no where to go. People don’t understand that my mother and father are very calculating and their way of thinking is fundamentally why men end up harming women. We know that God is not legally evident ..it is faith. Shouldn’t people understand that many other things in life though I cannot prove it in a court are true about what is being experienced by me from family, myself, others, church, etc.? Why do you accept that the most important thing is accepted by faith, God and Jesus Christ, and while you know what the results are and what my situation is, that anyone would try to make me prove the kind of things that are forcing me from parents and siblings and relatives when you know many such things are true but not provable. One cannot show data to argue with people that we love God; it is something God knows in your heart if you are truly genuine or if you just want something from him. Knowing this is usually how people are even toward God is it so hard to believe this is how people truly are toward me? and it is particularly a sad thing for most women because they don’t at least have the dignities many men have. There is such great distance and no relationship at all because women and men in my family think like this. Please pray for a miracle that truly there would be a change in heart in family members and those outside that relationship would be possible. Please pray for that salvation to come. Please pray for me for I am forced into this position because I have no way to be able to live as the men in my family are able to live their life. Please pray that at least my family will consider it truly God’s will that I do have that blessing too. My mother has shown me many times that she has a very unreasonable mental illness about what men and women do…it comes from her own admitted extreme lack of self confidence to do anything she thinks is a “male” thing. This is the disease in our family. She tries to buy everything with money, even children. Please pray that she will see that she is the one that is standing in the way of the very things she wants so badly in her extreme competitive and prideful comparisons to her neighbor and her great envy is ruining this family. She chose the world over God a long time ago and this is the heart of her extreme conservatism because she sees it as a way to get prosperity and greatness in the expansion of her family and money to make men do what she thinks men should do. I can see she schemes constantly and lies and through bad theology misunderstands. She is misled in her spiritual understanding because her heart is so twisted with envy and greed and lack of care for her neighbor. My father I know does not help. He is wiser at looking like he is a better person but his inaction and tactics and ways of getting his way has contributed to my mother’s feelings that this is the practical way to proceed. Now they all bow to my brother because of money and they try everyday to try to get me to idolize him too.