our father who art in heaven hallowed be thy name they kingdom come they will be done on earth as it is in heaven. give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. And stop these trials from being taken by us and all creation as our inner being, carrying them inward by the law of sin which is our trespass, but to be delivered from toilsome burden which is the evil. We call you father because it is your son who is the person within us, and there exists no soul but the spirit of God. There are many narratives as if they are about persons, but though these stories exist and happenings happen with measurable existence they are never about real persons or lives but about things, flesh and therefore imaginary. No person has actually thought or felt these thoughts and emotions. Only God is a person and a soul; when he thinks and feels these are true thoughts and feelings because they are the thoughts and feelings of a person. But whatever is not you Lord, even these imaginary souls we believe in existing in ourselves and others and other bodies, cannot be a true spirit but only lying spirits…spirits that are imaginary just as we might imagine stories of personal intent about our children making up thoughts and attributing them to them to explain what we see when that is not true. You Jesus are the truth. If we want to know the person that we are and only have the possibility to be, you are the truth Jesus. Therefore we abandon all interest in everything that we took as ourselves before even as we acknowledge the reality of those things that pattern our identity in the past exist; yet we do not believe they exist as a person. And just as we observe climates and lands and even outerspace bodies like inclement planets and favor one environment over another without any personal assignment we see ourselves and others and other creatures as well as all in the universe visible and invisible with certain value and liking and survivability should we visit them and dwell in them yet hold no anger as if it were some person there. For God is good and only he can do good. Whatever is right and true is his doing and everything else is not him. therefore we do not say there exist other souls, even ones he created, for if it is a soul that is not him but separate and not his very self then it cannot be good for only God is good. No we say we need you Jesus your very person that we may be instruments of your peace and will,the only personal will that exists ever. We even say in common language that one is not human if one behaves in certain ways..that we lack the personal humanity…so even the pagans understand that goodness is what makes a person. So we are set free Lord from the imagined gods that we think exist whether they be in form of animals or humans assigning one imagined soul to be a bad soul and another one a good soul like gods of old…but we say you jesus are the testimony and you revealed the truth in your birth death and resurrection that indeed it is the Lord who is our personal being and without him we have no personal being or soul for you are that person we the flesh and bodies can possibly have and only by your person can we cease to be blind and deaf to witness and be aware of you. For only you know yourself. We bless you therefore with all our hearts just as we used to make our bodies bless and serve an imagined self separate from you and defined by various things based on creaturely histories and possessions and stories about its place socially and relationally. We are your sheep Jesus and you are the shepherd..it is clear. And we no longer insist we care for another because of how we ascertain someone is valuable for being human souls which is often narrowed to care only for who suits our needs and justified by finding reasons so that we may come against them. But instead we defer to you as the only personal and as being the personal that cares for us and all and that from you the personal we say there is care from us to others. But our sinful rule over our bodies resist this truth because we know like Jonah how you will treat our enemies and so we deny the truth that you are our true person in us all, the one person that exists at all. We revert to believing in a multitude of persons which is equivalent to many gods though we do not want to acknowledge that these made up persons are other gods in essence. So now although much seems as before, we do not regard the things that happen or are thought or felt as our selves but see them as they are without the judgment of them being persons or attaching meaning to them just as we do not do that to the serpent or to the rocks that fall and hit us. We regard all as having fallen away and sinned to believe itself gods of strength that do not exist denying that Jesus, the Lord, is the one and only person that exists. It is you who brings all things into being, your being. The fact that we can be aware and sense shows your graciousness to all because your spirit is in all to perceive at all. you Lord Jesus go on forever, the great I AM. Because you live and live forever, and we identify with you, we say we also will live forever and you in us cares for our changing and growing bodies and so will even still provide a form though it may be quite different as much as a fetus is from an adult. But we care for the adult’s life as much as we did of its life as a fetus and therefore defend even the adult as we would the life and health and right of the fetus. For it is the same person that exists in each stage with no change, for it is the same spirit throughout…it is merely a container and body. It is your spirit that is the person.
I pray that my husband's heart is softened, and allows Jesus into his heart. I pray that he is able to forgive me, for
Rickey