Hope April 26, 2017
Im not a perfect person I have many flaws but I want to be. I want one thing in life and that’s happiness but it seems so far away. I was married and it took me 10 years to fall in love with someone new but he is gone now as well. After my mom died it left me with really no one to lean on but myself and I became cold but my bills were paid and had food so I was thankful when I needed my ex he was brought in my life but he caused more damage than good. I lost my job and it seemed as if I loved him more. I am very sad but have went on a prayer walk I begged god to let ne know that im not alone because I can’t do this alone anymore. I need hope that im worth loving. I know I do a lot wrong but do I deserve all this? Our split up couldn’t come at a worse time but im trying to look at it as god didn’t want me to be in something so toxic. I do love him and miss him and I just don’t know why I can’t find happiness. Please pray for me I don’t know how much more darkness I can take. Please pray for me to lift this sorrow from me and to find someone who will better me as a person. But please I could use all the prayers to just feel wanted and needed.