Lord in Heaven hallowed be thy name thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven. Lord, I am very sick mentally and having flashbacks to my vile sin that I was involved when I was seven years old. I don’t want to remember anymore and I am afraid you’ll send me to hell if I do as it is horrible. Please forgive me of this sin and for remembering I am torturing myself and I don’t know why my Lord. Please my Lord I don’t deserve to be in Heaven but I do deserve to die and ask that you take me out of my misery so I don’t have to relive these hellish sins. I am forever thankful for you saving me from hell and giving me ample opportunities to redeem myself especially with my brain taking Gods name in vein and yours as well. Your such an awesome God and beautiful in every way and in no way am I deserving. I just want the misery to end my Lord I am too sick mentally and in need of peace through death. I am very thankful for the help that I have received don’t get me wrong I feel very blessed. I just don’t see any way out from the demons inside my brain my sickness that will not go away. And I cannot manage being in two worlds on earth and in Heaven at the same time just as I couldn’t manage being in hell. I told them down there that I didn’t care over and over till it landed me into just a straight torturing position. And I know that is statement that you don’t particularly are fond of either my Lord. I just know that I cannot mentally focus and manage both worlds especially what I have been exposed to over the last three years. I ask respectfully that you take my life again swiftly and with violence of action because I have a strong heart. Please my Lord I’m to mentally sick and I don’t want to have a trigger like I just had now. Please save me before it’s too late for me. I love you truly. In our Fathers name we pray Amen.
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