Dear Jesus my Lord, H – "Hear me Lord and answer me for I am poor and needy." Psalm 86:1 E – "Establish my steps in your word." Psalm 119:133 L – "Let your compassion quickly meet our needs because we are on the brink of despair." Psalm 79:8 P – "Protect me God because I take refuge in You. I say to the Lord, You are my Lord, apart from You I have nothing good." Psalm 16:1. I am trying to survive down here but I am not fairing very well my Lord. The pain is overwhelming and exhausting I need a break from the depression. I can’t seem to mentally get it together I have been broken in two. I seek you because your my light, love and refuge. I need you my Lord now more than ever to protect me from myself and my mind. I accept all of my sins and flaws and take responsibility for my actions. I pray that you you’ll forgive me of my sins and protect me from my mind and help me reduce the pain and suffering that I am going through. I hope that you can see that I am mentally sick what person chooses such torture by the very thoughts he has to abolish themselves from Heaven and commit themselves to torture if they were of sound mind. I know you’ve given me your understanding and have saved me more times than I can count but I am truly lost is it a sin to be lost beyond your minds control? I certainly choose the side of right every time I just wish I could control my mind and the things that come out of it. I don’t like to be tortured or abused but yet my mind chooses it I have to be the sickest person you’ve ever encountered I’ve spent a lot of money for donation to these prayers trying to reach you my Lord. I know I’m lost cause but I hope that I can be worthy of your protection. I’m grasping for straws because I know you strongly dislike me because of this thing I’ve become. I’m tired of being in pain and alone I know I can’t be fixed or healed I just want chance to be protected and safe free from pain and the destruction of my own mind. I didn’t mean to offend you or break your heart Lord I understand the difference between right and wrong and don’t understand my brain’s choices to call you vulgarities. I can’t control myself just like I can’t here in hell that’s not the logical sounds of a sane person. I pray that I never existed my Lord. As much as I want to fit in or be loved I know that I can’t. You don’t think that I am sick Lord but yet here I suffer. They’re trying to kill me and I don’t want to die here. Please save me Lord. I am speechless of all the good things you’ve done for me and thankful in every way. I’m not just saying these words to get you to save me I’m being honest and humble. In your Heavenly name I pray. Amen
Heavenly Father, I pray that my waiver is complete, submitted, reviewed, and approved in a few days. I pray that they waive the interview.
Mayra