Lord, there are no words to express how horrible I feel every time I break Your heart. The guilt and the shame is overwhelming when I allow myself to do so. I ask for Your touch right now, and for Your forgiveness for all I’ve done. I am so sick of being “born again” and still doing the things I hate doing. The hardness of allowing myself to do wrong is a barrier between the two of us that I can’t stand. I love You, and I am so regrettably sorry for my selfish actions against You and all others. Thank You for Your forgiveness, Lord. With Your forgiveness I am whole again, and new. I yield to you my Lord and hope that you’ll consider my circumstances to how I ended up being. I pray for your mercy and kindness and love. The things I’ve had to endure due to fragile brain. I still stand with you that is why I’m being tortured it’s all or nothing my Lord. My time spent with the demon on my left foot and presenting a surrogate afterlife body in heaven and all the times I failed because of the curse in my head. I was dropped from heaven to supernatural earth where demons always knew where to find me and take me back to hell. These instances left me feel cold and all alone and a lack of trust. The deception that satan presented deceived you and I. But I caught on to the trickery and tried presenting to you but you didn’t believe me. This is where I developed resentment because I was telling the truth. But yet I was shunned this makes a man go crazy when his God fails go believe in him or listen to what he has to say. If I only I were given the opportunity to have my feet read for the truth to come out. The strength and power it goes into such a deception imagine what satan he has done to keep strong hearts away from God. All the times you tried to take my life and I should have died but didn’t because of the demon in control of the surrogate afterlife body. It all makes sense my Lord. I was lead away from you intentionally. Now you hate me because of the things my mind says. I’m deeply ashamed of what my sub conscience repeats. I’m sorry for ever breaking your heart and not having the faith to motor on. I know these are requirements to the kingdom of Heaven. I’m not asking to be received into heaven. I’m respectfully asking for mercy and a place to go for the eternally lost. Since I’m a product of both realm’s now I need serious protection. I pray that you will forgive me of all my sins my Lord. I have always loved you despite our hardship’s and no matter what my brain may say. Even if you don’t believe me I am sick now and see no way out. I pray that you will save me and help me with my issues of the brain. I love all of my family in heaven and I’m not giving up on you Lord. Please don’t give up on me. In your Heavenly name I pray. Amen
Heavenly Father, I pray that my waiver is complete, submitted, reviewed, and approved in a few days. I pray that they waive the interview.
Mayra