Lord Jesus Christ, only begotten son of the Almighty Father, this has been the worst year of my life.
Everything that was ever important to me has been handed over to my enemies.
I live in a world where entertainment companies teach everyone, even children, that it is okay to sin against God and nature. Now I can never have children of my own, knowing I’d be bringing them to life in a world this evil.
My heart is broken. Everyone I know either has or is falling in love and moving on with their lives, while I continue to have no one and nothing.
My books, which I spent years of my life writing, aren’t selling. It seems as if all my efforts have been for nothing.
Despite my weakness of faith, I have continued to pray as instructed. But it seems as if my prayers were all for nothing.
I used to love life, but now I spend my days wondering if it’s possible to die from sheer frustration.
If this has all been a test, I can’t see rhyme or reason behind any of it.
Please Lord Jesus Christ, I want my life back. I want my faith to be rewarded. I want to be happy again.